This entry needs an introduction. As I sat to write this in my journal, so that I wouldnt forget anything. I was on a bus. Heading to Temuco. 6 hours. I wanted to write about my last 2 days on the trail, but my mind was on how amazing adventures are and what I was beginning to think made an adventure an adventure. And this is what came out. Its raw, and unchanged. An exact copy of what is on the pages of my journal.
¨ I guess an adventure is when you´re perpetually lost yet always on the right path. A path which you cant find. No, its a path that finds you.
I guess adventure means everytime you make a plan it has to be broken. Because every time I plan, every time I try and control my adventure, I get a slap in the face. Surprise! Something changes. And what happens instead is unplanned. But that´s the only way it can happen because it is th epath that must find you.
An adventure is a balance. Fun and scary. Good and bad. Circumstances that make you laugh and those that make you want to cry. But if you look at adventure like this, comparing and contrasting. Judging, deciding what was good and what was bad. Telling yourself that the good was an adventure and that the bad was just an obstacle to overcome....a hinderance. If you´re doing this youçre not seeing with open eyes. So take a deep breath.
Step back.
Take it all in.
There is no good or bad just like there is no control. Because its all an adventure. If things didnt go wrong, then nothing would change. You would gain control and thus snuff the adventure. So it´s more than balance, instead its all one. Unity in experience.
Adventure is a state of mind, Openness and acceptance that if you follow your heart and live freely every single moment...exciting things will happen.
Adventure can be found and enjoyed on any scale. All you have to do is abandon your routine(that demon which slowly sucks the life out of us all) and listen to your inner self. Inner child? Subconsciousness? Heart? Doesn´t matter what you call it. Just listen and then do.
Start. Begin. Jump off the edge into the unknown. Into an existence where you abandon control.
Once you do this you´ll find that you´ve gone down the rabbit hole.
And now.
Everything is new.
Everything is one.
And it´s all an adventure.
When you realize these things and realize the power of letting go. You will experience moments that can only be felt. And not explained. And these moments feel perfect.
I know. I´ve had some. And afterwards all I could do was throw my head back and laugh. Grinning like an idiot at everything around me.
With these things in mi9nd, what follows is the essence of adventure. Found. And it begins with light rainfall at 5:45am on a Sunday morning while I am lying in my tent at the base of a volcanoe. Utterly alone....
Day 4. I wake up at 5:45 to the sound of rain. Great. No volcanoe today I guess. Go back to sleep in my cozy tent. Get up at like 8:30, eat breakfast. No rain. But then it starts raining. Pack up everything whilst struggling to keep it dry as possible. Then I leave camp and start to head farther into the mountains...but its impossibel to follow the trail I need. I check the pictures of the map that I took. It should be right here. Wander around. No decent trail. Super confusing little cow trails. And then the rain changes to hail. Great. I start thinking that maybe <I should head back. But I want to get to the other park...and it is up and over a mountain pass in front of me. Well if its hailing here then its snowing up there. Then hail turns to slushy snow. The kind that doesnt quite stick. Oh shit, I gotta get out of here. So I turn around and start heading back. Downhill. Down everything I went up the day before. As Im crossing the desert nature calls. I have to shit. Oh great. Im already cold and wet and my wool gloves are half soaked. Only 1.5 miles from camp, taking the high route across the desert to avoid a gnarly and dangerous bit of cliff that I had to climb across the day before. Where I almost fell. And the only shelter is a big rock with a 2 foot snow shadow. Well, I gotta do it, so I do and as Im sitting there the snow thickens and the temperature drops. By the time I start hiking again. 15 minutes later. Theres alomost an inch of snow on the desert. So I hike fast as the weather quickly changes and becomes a blizzard. Snow falling fast, and wind all over the place. I cross the river in full gear. I was already soaked before the river. Then I make a mad dash down the canyon. I only stop once for water and to take a picture. Snow sticking all over all my clothes. 6 inches on the ground at times. And it only started snowing 2 hours ago. Hands cold but just warm enough. If I hadnt found these gloves on the way up yesterday, and grabbed them, I would be in serious danger of getting frost bite right now. No joke. As Im high tailing it downhill, trying to outrun a blizzard, and watching as my whole world disappears under a white blanket, moments pass where I am scar3ed. I think about how I am alone, in a blizzard, and Im cold and my mind tells me that I could die. But then I shake it off, just tell myself what I have to do. Keep hiking. Dont stop. Get to where I camped the other night, because where the French couple was was a bit of shelter. Some little shack. And then I calm down. And after shedding the fear I hike with a big smile. This is crazy, I cant belie3ve that this is happening. HAHA!. Ahh, big happy sigh. I´ll be fine. Get to camp. I had done the 8 miles in 2.5 to 3 hours. Damn, it took me 5 or 6 the day before. I get down there and theres 2 cowboys in the shack. With a fire. I ask one about where I should camp and if theres a way to open the refugio, hoping that he´ll offer to shelter me in the shack. I cant quite understand what he says, he speaks with a thick accent and lots of slang. So I thank him and go over to the bathrooms. Rig up a tarp for shelter for all my stuff and so I can change while its snowing. I set up my tent right next to the cement slab. Climb in . eat a cold lunch. Shiver in my sleeping bag. Try to sleep for a bit. Its almost impossible to warm up. I have all my dry clothes on and the sleeping bag is closed. Im exhaling warm air to warm it up but its not really working. Its too cold outside. After an hour i get it just barely warm enough. I doze off for 2 hours. Wake up as its getting dark to the sound of a voice. Its the cowboy. He invites me to sleep by the fire, says I´ll freeze out here. I thank him and grab my pad and sleeping bag and follow him into the shack. Its warm. I sleep out by the fire with the dogs. They sleep inside with tons of blankets. They give me some chilean alcohol and chocolate to warm my core. I go to bed with all of my wet clothes hanging by the fire.